Baby #4, Week 15

How far along: 15 weeks!

Baby is the size of: an apple!

Gender Prediction: Boy!

Weight gain: Forgot to weigh myself again... 

Starting to show yet?: Oh yes!

Maternity clothes: Oh yes! And they are glorious!

Stretch marks: Just a lot of old ones.

Belly button in or out: In.

Sleep: Great! I am feeling more energized in the mornings, but I usually need to take a nap in the late morning/early afternoon. 

Movement: YES!!! So exciting! I was at my friend Jen's house when I felt the first kick! I was unsure, but it happened again, and then again, and then again! What a wonderful feeling! I still haven't been feeling it as often as I'd like, but there are moments during the day when I'll fell the baby move and it takes my breath away, in a good way! 

Best moment this week: Feeling the baby move! I am excited for Charles and the girls to feel the baby soon!

Worst moment this week: My anxiety about the baby even being alive. Seems silly now that I have been feeling the baby move, but up until that point, I was having some terrible moments of anxiety and fear. A blessing that Charles gave me this week confirmed that God wants this baby to come into the world and into our family. I have felt much better about things since then! 

Miss anything: My size 8 jeans, my size B bra, and my size medium workout pants. It's no secret that I'm pregnant and growing! But it still makes me a little sad since I had just started really enjoying my smaller body when I got pregnant! I still miss sushi.

Wedding rings on or off?: On.

Cravings: Apples. Watermelon. Cinnamon candy: Hot Tamales, Red Hots.
Aversions: Raw Chicken (still...)
Appetite: Regular! I don't feel like I'm starving as much. I find myself not being able to eat as much, actually. 

Queasy or sick: I had a terrible cough/sinus pressure thing going on all week. It made it hard to do anything. Walking, picking up Vivian, stairs, sitting up, etc. Everything made me breathless and threw me into a coughing fit. I wouldn't even cough up anything. It was so frustrating. By the third day, I started coughing up a little blood. Scary, but I was fine. Even today, I still cough, but I feel 100% better!
Workouts: None with my cold/cough thing I had.

Emotionally: Although I had my moments of bad anxiety, I actually had a great week! Seems like this pregnancy is becoming more real to me! (I know I'm 15 weeks! Haha!) I am getting mentally/emotionally ready for the labor and delivery. Both have gotten shorter with the more children I have. Caitlin was 12 hours of active labor with about 13 minutes of pushing(I had pitocin and an epidural). Rosalie was 5 hours of active labor with 2 pushes, about 5 minutes of pushing(natural labor and delivery!). And Vivian was 45 minutes of active labor and I didn't even push her out(natural labor and delivery)! AHH! There is no telling how long or short my labor will be and if I'll even push this baby out! I do plan on going the natural route again: no pain meds, epidural, pitocin, etc. I feel more in control of my body when I know what I'm feeling. It was a scary feeling NOT to feel when pushing Caitlin out. But like all of my labors, I know that it's going to hurt. Vivian's labor and delivery was awful. So, so, SO painful. I seriously debated not having anymore children after her. It hurt that bad! So bad that I didn't even talk about having another baby until Vivian was about 22 months old!
Physically: Aside from my cold/cough thing, I feel more energized! I am excited to get back to Zumba tonight and the other fitness classes through the week that I've been missing from being so sick and because of the holidays! I am itching to get moving! I can feel my body slipping away from me (can you say, "love handles"?!) and I want to reel it in as much as I can! I need to start lifting again, too! Lightly, of course!

Looking forward to: Week 16! My 16 week appointment on the 22nd! Scheduling the ultrasound! Finding out the gender of the baby at the gender reveal party!